Yes, it is that time of the year again, when I reflect on ‘the life and times of’- yours truly. As the years pass by one thing is clear; present is always the toughest. The past seems a lot easier looking back. And presently you are thinking, “well the future is bound to be easy because your working so hard for it to be that way…”. Put yourself in your younger self’s shoes and all of your new found wisdom will tell you, “…this isn’t tough, wait till you see what the future holds!” So twisted, isn’t it?
Sigh.
At the end of the day you selectively modify and sort your memory. Make the good times happier, the bad ones a lot less sad and omit the sad ones altogether. So that one day when you look back, the hazy past buffers you from the ever-so-testing present and the scary uncertainties of the future.
Although present is such a bitch, we all still find a way to keep us going… and it’s not just the thoughts of a better future… it is our ability to go to the child we all hold inside (I mean relying solely on the future is a pretty dodgy strategy). The child helps forget rationality and loose our self for that moment in carefree and liberated existence. It is that innocence that keeps me going, it gives me the courage to face the present in it’s true colours and helps me dream of a fantastic future.
Life would be a cotton candy if I never grew up!